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Fi: A Memoir of My Son

Next in the queue

73

/100

I Index Overall Rating

Readers

50/100

Critics

96/100

Scholars

N/A

Author:

Alexandra Fuller

Publisher:

Grove Press

Date:

April 9, 2024

It's midsummer in Wyoming and Alexandra is barely hanging on. Grieving her father and pining for her home country of Zimbabwe, reeling from a midlife breakup, freshly sober and piecing her way uncertainly through a volatile new relationship with a younger woman, Alexandra vows to get herself back on even keel. And then—suddenly and incomprehensibly—her son Fi, at twenty-one years old, dies in his sleep. No stranger to loss, she is painfully aware that she cannot succumb and abandon her two surviving daughters as her mother before her had done. From a sheep wagon deep in the mountains of Wyoming to a grief sanctuary in New Mexico to a silent meditation retreat in Alberta, Canada, Alexandra journeys up and down the spine of the Rocky Mountains in an attempt to find how to grieve herself whole.

What The Reviewers Say

David Sheff,
The New York Times Book Review
Fuller leaves nothing under the table, under the rug or under wraps.
Marion Winik,
The Washington Post
A book that is as hard to pick up as it is to put down — a gutting, terrifying, profound and defiantly enthralling read.
Melissa H. Pierson,
The Wall Street Journal
A seductive read about unrelenting agony. Self-effacing, wise and dry, the author’s style may be described as "frenetic lyric".
Blake Morrison,
The Observer (UK)
Life writers often want to be likable, for readers to sit beside them and empathise. Fuller’s not in that camp: rawly bereft, she doesn’t care how she comes across..